Awakening my healing journey
One year ago today, I found myself devastated and heartbroken as my 11-year long relationship came to an end. At the time, I was freshly 29 and single, feeling like a part of me was missing. The person I believed loved and cherished me had cheated on me, discarded me, and left me in a state of emotional ruin. I reflected on my younger self, the 17-year-old girl who was once deeply in love, and wondered where I had gone wrong. Despite being a loving and caring girlfriend who always ensured that my partner was happy, it still wasn't enough. The last two years of the relationship were marked by his violence, his self-harm, being blamed for his depression, and constant belittlement of my accomplishments.
It was in August of last year, I came across a company called St. Soleil. I stumbled upon Lucid Dreams, a beginner deck that spoke to my soul. Ever since I was six years old, I had always possessed a unique gift of seeing shadow figures, reading energy, and having an innate understanding of the sixth sense. However, my mother, who shared the same gift, encouraged me to suppress it.
Despite my best efforts to block it out,
the calling of the metaphysical always remained.
Unfortunately, my ex-partner had discouraged me from pursuing my gift all those years we were together, perhaps because he was worried that I would uncover his lies. But I was determined to tap into my gift, get to know it, and allow it to help me heal. I began watching readings by Antphrodite and Rich Lopp in secret, trying to get a glimpse of what my future held.